The observation I make from looking through up to now, is the fact that equilibrium doesn't seem to happen to be an aspect of the esoteric understanding you turned preoccupied with. Personally, I try out to help keep "harmony" as my dictum, in all things.
Double-reverse psychology, followed by utter chaos and confusion (throwing a lot of contradictory messages at you at the same time, Each individual using a deception buried in some fact)
Their response to me was usually dismissive; not hostile, far more like "There's no cause of you to be listed here at this moment; we have nothing to convey to you personally," which was puzzling to me due to the fact throughout these encounters I felt like I were "led" there deliberately. The 1 exception was a optimistic (I believe?) encounter with something resembling the deal with of Ganesha, who wordlessly indicated that I was permitted to "go through" something that I can not really don't forget.
At times they were used to characterize detrimental properties of my own temperament. Most frequently, they had been used in "classroom"-themed allegorical lessons implicitly demanding my have faith in and respect, displaying me what takes place to foolish "pupils" who do things which displease them. Most of these classes boiled down to transparent (with the good thing about hindsight) ad hominem or straw male fallacies.
My guess is they stated it was harsh not resulting from impurities but due to combustion of copyright alone, which may make irritatint by-merchandise.
An introductory time period for the duration of which the beings lastly detect them selves, saying responsibility for a minimum of many of your prior experiences
Warnings of your inescapable doom and claims that they will be along with you eternally it doesn't matter what you do
My occasional uncertainties that these activities have been something in excess of "just goals" were being rapidly erased by The truth that I could now understand and face these entities (or whichever singular or collective intelligence was behind all of it) in fundamentally any of my altered states, often even leaking into my standard waking consciousness.
The counterpart on the twins who have been always endeavoring to entice me with a little something enticing, this figure was an equally prevalent Portion of my lucid dreams along with other altered states, and was in no way linked to the others in any clear way until the end. His role was always that of a nefarious predator, chasing, overwhelming, and tormenting me.
Portion 3 posted. Phew! That was about 2 times given that I meant it being. I will consider to complete up portion 4 and get it posted tomorrow.
The lesser beings appeared not exactly keen on this stuff, even resentful of the way in which they flaunted and abused their electricity. They had been utterly and devastatingly potent and terrifying, with close to-entire Management around me.
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The breakthroughs you will get from subsequent the "rabbit gap" and connecting the dots are incredible and Terrifying alike. I wish I'd some time and balance in my daily life at this time to re-solidify my meditation procedures, but college and dips into melancholy Use a way of slowing me down.
I am unable to picture what might have took place to me if I failed to get out After i did; my "initiation" was surely here leading to anything Significantly deeper. I really don't want to distribute unnecessary dread and paranoia, but no matter how you choose to interpret all this, remember to, remember to be mindful available!